Vinolia Sim
Chayemba
16.09.1991
TK&SD Sutomo 1
FMSS 1b 2d 3f 4f
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
yay,. feel so organized after spending almost one hour planning my studies and homework for the holiday.
and i realised that in order to finish all my holiday hws like all the a math e math tys physics workbook tys, chemistry testpaper and so more, i need to do SOME every single day that includes sundays and all my holidays in indonesia.
so i had to keep reminding myself that prelim is 3 months away and i have got to do something to improve my grades.
lets see.. hmmm not more than 10 points? acjc...!!!!
1 for 2sciences and 2 maths. 2 for physics, 4 for english and 2 for both my higher mother tongue and humanities. its not that difficult to achieve right?
ohkayy actually nothing much to blog about today. had been at home the whole entire day doing amath and emath, and i didnt even do alot. its just my target today. have been spending the afternoon clearing my whole room. its so dusty.. and i found that i still kept this starhub mat that i had gotten for free during the hoobastank consert and i decided to use it as my table cloth. its kinda cool having a black and green tablecloth with big GREEN starbub logo in the middle.
sometime i wonder what is the use of having a maid while i have to clean my whole room including sweeping the floor. well that will be the case if u dont hire the maid yourself. it means, the maid is actually working for the owner, practically the people who hires her and pay her.. its so anal even to just think about it. but since i am actually quite an optimistic person, i wouldnt mind that and will always look at e brighter side. for example at least i dont have to wash and iron my own cloth unlike handy, i dont need to prepare breakfast and sometime clean my bead and wash my own toilet. haha.=) so its ok vinolia.. you will be more independent if you can do this kind of thing.! look at the positive sunlight ><
my almost 4 years old laptop has been hanging since these few days. it Will just hang and you cant even restart as in you mus press the power button for 10 sec before it actually shut down and i had been doing that for about 4 times just for today alone. geez... it sucks to have a 4 years old laptop and what can you do when your family is poor? stick to this computer lor. no money to buy new one what. haiz.it is so gonna die soon in the matter of days or not even that in the matter of hours or minutes. ha ha..lets just hope that i can finish posting this post up before it cocked up and forced to shut down again...
well. it has been getting boring here now, and before it dies, i better sign off now. haha
post a MATH madness
Labels: yay.planning homework for june holidays. so happy. as if.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
the penguin didnt come to schl! or at least i didnt see penguin today.
as i expected. haha. praise God. hallelujah.
but i have done all the preparation. i had purposely buy new pair of socks, pins, and comb up all my fringes that it looked super neat and tidy and my new socks that kept going up after walking for a few steps. dont i look awful with my without my fringes?
well i feel weird and not confident. hahah tho alot of people says it actually look nice on me. fion complimented me, cikgu was shocked, bx,julia,joy was shocked to see me while nina farah celesty claire almost fainted. haha. was it that bad afterall?
today was quite a terrible day. i couldnt concentrate well in class i think because i have been sleeping very late these few days. but at least i listened in amath chem and phsy, but i didnt write down notes for amath. ah. need to copy from fellow nina again. she is used to letting me copy her notes. haha =)
today mdm toh was behaving very weird, i was being interrogated by her.. lol i know she is concern about my wellbeing. ah.
ok let me tell you the sequence.
1. vinolia. are you ohkay. what happen to you arh. how come your result like that/ other subs also didnt do well right..?
ans: hmm yea i am ok.. 'i shook my head' i dont know?
2. are you sure you are ohkay? you are doing fine?
ans: hmm yea i am doing fine, err ya ok?
3.no family problems? or are you feeling stress? cant cope with school works?
ans: no la. stress? abit? haha. can cope what. normal lho
4. ahh lazy is it? see lah never do works ah.. [[nina: see what i told ya. lazy!]]
ans: hmm no la.i got pay attention in claass what only sometime i will be a bit distracted.i got go to jurong library everyday to study ok.its nina who never follow me..
5. ah.. got boyfriend already is it.. nina feel bad what being lampost. {f**k}???? see now become so pretty. really got boyfriend ah. hayo.
ans: no lor. i m very hardworking one. see i pass up the graph alr 1st thing in the morning. {graph homework which i was suppose to pass up today}
omg.why would mdm toh ask me those sort of questions. did i look like i have alot of problems? and suffers from deppresion? yea. and i am really depressed now. feel that i have dissapointed mdm toh alot. and i actually dont even know what had happen to me. why did i do until so bad.. maybe i didnt practice hard enough? woah.
nina also gave me alot of pressure. but i believe the pressure is for good purpose. now i have to prove to her that i can get A1 for both my math. another reason why i should get my 1 for maths. besides.
1.wanting to get at most 10 points for prelim so that can go to ACJC
2.want to be able to excel to my potential as i believe i have potential in maths considering i always get 85%++ in sec1 and 2
3.dont want my money to go to waste as i had spend alot of money investing in good tuition teacher whom i believe will help me to excel in my maths.
4.want to have sense of achievement
5.do not want to dissapoint mdm toh, and every teacher who teaches me.
6.PROVE to nina and jessica. for jessica that i am better than her and will always be. for nina that i can get my A1!
7.for GOD
I was so happy that i am not in s2e, not because of the impression that others will give but its about self pride? hmm actually not about that too. at some point i wil want to go to s2e coz of the good learning system that will discipline ourselves to study and revise and complete our homework. but sometime i die die dont want to get in because i am worry about the impression other pp willl give when i go there.
and there is actually 3 people in our class who must go for s2e. hmm keith chingyang and junjer i think. ok.keith, dont be sad yea, i am sure that the teachers are trying to help you in your studies and pray that the s2e will actually help you improve in your result. for chingyang i think its a good decision to let him go to s2e. so that he can discipline himself. chingyang is actually smart! lol
anyway i cant wait till 29th of may! which is our service learning day! i have been too engrossed in my imagination of e service learning. haha. and plan to stay over at the airport the night before. sounds cool eh. haha.
anw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOEL!!! =) you have grown one year older!
as i expected. haha. praise God. hallelujah.
but i have done all the preparation. i had purposely buy new pair of socks, pins, and comb up all my fringes that it looked super neat and tidy and my new socks that kept going up after walking for a few steps. dont i look awful with my without my fringes?
well i feel weird and not confident. hahah tho alot of people says it actually look nice on me. fion complimented me, cikgu was shocked, bx,julia,joy was shocked to see me while nina farah celesty claire almost fainted. haha. was it that bad afterall?
today was quite a terrible day. i couldnt concentrate well in class i think because i have been sleeping very late these few days. but at least i listened in amath chem and phsy, but i didnt write down notes for amath. ah. need to copy from fellow nina again. she is used to letting me copy her notes. haha =)
today mdm toh was behaving very weird, i was being interrogated by her.. lol i know she is concern about my wellbeing. ah.
ok let me tell you the sequence.
1. vinolia. are you ohkay. what happen to you arh. how come your result like that/ other subs also didnt do well right..?
ans: hmm yea i am ok.. 'i shook my head' i dont know?
2. are you sure you are ohkay? you are doing fine?
ans: hmm yea i am doing fine, err ya ok?
3.no family problems? or are you feeling stress? cant cope with school works?
ans: no la. stress? abit? haha. can cope what. normal lho
4. ahh lazy is it? see lah never do works ah.. [[nina: see what i told ya. lazy!]]
ans: hmm no la.i got pay attention in claass what only sometime i will be a bit distracted.i got go to jurong library everyday to study ok.its nina who never follow me..
5. ah.. got boyfriend already is it.. nina feel bad what being lampost. {f**k}???? see now become so pretty. really got boyfriend ah. hayo.
ans: no lor. i m very hardworking one. see i pass up the graph alr 1st thing in the morning. {graph homework which i was suppose to pass up today}
omg.why would mdm toh ask me those sort of questions. did i look like i have alot of problems? and suffers from deppresion? yea. and i am really depressed now. feel that i have dissapointed mdm toh alot. and i actually dont even know what had happen to me. why did i do until so bad.. maybe i didnt practice hard enough? woah.
nina also gave me alot of pressure. but i believe the pressure is for good purpose. now i have to prove to her that i can get A1 for both my math. another reason why i should get my 1 for maths. besides.
1.wanting to get at most 10 points for prelim so that can go to ACJC
2.want to be able to excel to my potential as i believe i have potential in maths considering i always get 85%++ in sec1 and 2
3.dont want my money to go to waste as i had spend alot of money investing in good tuition teacher whom i believe will help me to excel in my maths.
4.want to have sense of achievement
5.do not want to dissapoint mdm toh, and every teacher who teaches me.
6.PROVE to nina and jessica. for jessica that i am better than her and will always be. for nina that i can get my A1!
7.for GOD
I was so happy that i am not in s2e, not because of the impression that others will give but its about self pride? hmm actually not about that too. at some point i wil want to go to s2e coz of the good learning system that will discipline ourselves to study and revise and complete our homework. but sometime i die die dont want to get in because i am worry about the impression other pp willl give when i go there.
and there is actually 3 people in our class who must go for s2e. hmm keith chingyang and junjer i think. ok.keith, dont be sad yea, i am sure that the teachers are trying to help you in your studies and pray that the s2e will actually help you improve in your result. for chingyang i think its a good decision to let him go to s2e. so that he can discipline himself. chingyang is actually smart! lol
anyway i cant wait till 29th of may! which is our service learning day! i have been too engrossed in my imagination of e service learning. haha. and plan to stay over at the airport the night before. sounds cool eh. haha.
anw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOEL!!! =) you have grown one year older!
Labels: interrogation by mdm toh
Monday, May 21, 2007
officially 8 more hours before i end up in the penguin's office today.
so will i be awake and count every minute every second i have before i lie on my deathbed..
sometime i really wonder why did i end up in this state.
1.did i pon school too much?
2.did i really have that 'attitiude' problem => that's what the mask said.
3.or its just simply i didnt do well and thus she wants to encourage me?
well it cant be the third point. as what every body knows about the penguin. She is the unique one. haha. she will probably shout and scream at you hysterically when you enter her office or maybe she just point a gun at you and say 'you are dead.there is no point of return' or she can just ask you to sit down and talk to you in a nice and calm manner. who the heck doesnt want the third action whereby she ask you to sit down and talk nicely?
but i must see her straight after assembly. do you think it is the situation whereby she will waste your lesson time talking to you nicely in her office?
okok. i really have a wild imagination. i have never been in the principal office before. or yes i had ever been before but not ALONE. ALONE!!!! ahh.and i rather be in a group of people and got scolding tgt than having a private time with her although i should feel honoured because she wants to talk to me alone.. =(
preparation that should be done :
1 new fairfield socks which i bought today
2 new hair pins which i also bought today in bookshop
3 my old old addidas shoes that is super dirty and black that cant exactly see the pink colour unlike my converse
4 fully zipped uniform and tie.
5 knee length skirt
6 INNOCENT face
yea. i am going to look undeniably NICE tommorow and e penguin will get 'high' when she sees me such that she will ask me to return to my class...
yes and i am immagining stuff which i m not suppose to.
i am suppose to feel scared and worry of what may happen tomorrow.
but what am i feeling now? i m feeling HIGH and curious? bullshit. vinolia you need to face it man. tmr is YOUR day.. GOGO!! ><
ok people just pray for me ya, that she wouldnt do the 1st or 2nd action towards me such as shouting and screaming, pointing a gun at me and the most important thing is not to call my parents and guardians. i really dont want to burden my parents with these kind of lame stuff for having 'attitude problem' which is shown in my malay which i find it utterly not connected to why must i see the penguin thanx. in jesus name i pray, AMen..........
<===== i think this is whats going to happen to me tomorrow.. whish me luck
so will i be awake and count every minute every second i have before i lie on my deathbed..
sometime i really wonder why did i end up in this state.
1.did i pon school too much?
2.did i really have that 'attitiude' problem => that's what the mask said.
3.or its just simply i didnt do well and thus she wants to encourage me?
well it cant be the third point. as what every body knows about the penguin. She is the unique one. haha. she will probably shout and scream at you hysterically when you enter her office or maybe she just point a gun at you and say 'you are dead.there is no point of return' or she can just ask you to sit down and talk to you in a nice and calm manner. who the heck doesnt want the third action whereby she ask you to sit down and talk nicely?
but i must see her straight after assembly. do you think it is the situation whereby she will waste your lesson time talking to you nicely in her office?
okok. i really have a wild imagination. i have never been in the principal office before. or yes i had ever been before but not ALONE. ALONE!!!! ahh.and i rather be in a group of people and got scolding tgt than having a private time with her although i should feel honoured because she wants to talk to me alone.. =(
preparation that should be done :
1 new fairfield socks which i bought today
2 new hair pins which i also bought today in bookshop
3 my old old addidas shoes that is super dirty and black that cant exactly see the pink colour unlike my converse
4 fully zipped uniform and tie.
5 knee length skirt
6 INNOCENT face
yea. i am going to look undeniably NICE tommorow and e penguin will get 'high' when she sees me such that she will ask me to return to my class...
yes and i am immagining stuff which i m not suppose to.
i am suppose to feel scared and worry of what may happen tomorrow.
but what am i feeling now? i m feeling HIGH and curious? bullshit. vinolia you need to face it man. tmr is YOUR day.. GOGO!! ><
ok people just pray for me ya, that she wouldnt do the 1st or 2nd action towards me such as shouting and screaming, pointing a gun at me and the most important thing is not to call my parents and guardians. i really dont want to burden my parents with these kind of lame stuff for having 'attitude problem' which is shown in my malay which i find it utterly not connected to why must i see the penguin thanx. in jesus name i pray, AMen..........
<===== i think this is whats going to happen to me tomorrow.. whish me luckLabels: countdown to meeting with the penguin from south pole
Sunday, May 20, 2007
i just cant think straight now.
i stared into blank spaces
spaces that contain nothing
but emptiness
thinking of what had happen to my life.
it is just simply too dramatic
worse than a soap opera
but
sometime it can be too plain and boring
as plain as a white paper
i can say no one would understand how i feel
not even my closefriends
or whom i called 'closefriends'
deep down inside my heart
i feel like crying it all out
it has been contained for so long
for i have to pour it all out before it explode one day
there is a limit in which a person can contain
if it exceed the limit, it will burst
burst into bits and pieces
i want to share my life
my sorrow and my happiness
with someone who truly understand me
is there even somebody out there
who is willing to do so
i cant do anything now
for it will not make any diffrences
life will still go on
and it will be the same
no matter what
the emptiness inside me.
i stared into blank spaces
spaces that contain nothing
but emptiness
thinking of what had happen to my life.
it is just simply too dramatic
worse than a soap opera
but
sometime it can be too plain and boring
as plain as a white paper
i can say no one would understand how i feel
not even my closefriends
or whom i called 'closefriends'
deep down inside my heart
i feel like crying it all out
it has been contained for so long
for i have to pour it all out before it explode one day
there is a limit in which a person can contain
if it exceed the limit, it will burst
burst into bits and pieces
i want to share my life
my sorrow and my happiness
with someone who truly understand me
is there even somebody out there
who is willing to do so
i cant do anything now
for it will not make any diffrences
life will still go on
and it will be the same
no matter what
the emptiness inside me.
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
gee.. i finish designing the blogskin and all the links and music and tagboard at 4 am. the blogger page load damn slow. waited the whole morning! >< color="#ffff00">absorb like a sponge..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
and just like a sponge... it doesn't absorb all the water... it release water too..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
and only a certain amount of water is stored within the sponge.. -
=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
what i am trying to say is that... absorb everything.. at the same time filter it and throw it away..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
filter the bad things... and keep those which will motivate you..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
and whenever u wanna study... recall those which motivate you to study.
this piece of encouragement really made me realise that not all the words that the mask blurted out was true. that i should just listen to what is useful and filtrate out what is not. when nina asked about it to mdm toh and she didnt say anything.but its all seem to be exagerated.
mask: Vinolia failed malay because she wrote out of point
penguin: SHe had learn her lesson
mask: Farah failed geography
penguin: Oh dear.. what had happen to her? she used to be a very good and smart girl
notice what is the difference?
i had to bisect my whole wadrobe to find e perfect clothing for me. i think i really need to get some matching clothes lesson coz i think i have a very bad sense of fashion? thats what some of them told me like farah and nina? huh not as if theirs very good right ><>. at last i decided to choose this shirt. i love it and i just love it. haahs
JESUS vs ALIEN talk was great, it talked about how pop western culture had its influence over God's people and opps i forgot who is the speaker but i know he is an angmoh. and he is 44 years OLD. poor rahul lost his phone during the lunch at west coast macs. all of us recalled that e phone was in MRs billie car., but when we got inside. poof dissapear.!
e lunch at macs were great too. shushi, megan and rahul was there.. Its so sweet of Mrs Billie to buy us pastries from macs which i always find it very ex and not worth buying, but it TASTE great.. after that we went to this pyramid thing. its all made from rope and we are suppose to climb all the way to the top. shuszhe was like super FAST. she took less than 1 minute to climb all the way up. while i took hours and get stuck in the middle of it. didnt dare to go up or down. oh i think i need to go there more often and practice climbing it and conquering my fears of falling down and die ><>
there was a small book fair at faith methodist church where they sell variety of christian books. its all about struggles, believes, faiths and there is even one for homeosexuality. sounds cool eh. i bought myself a book. its about questions teens are asking about god. there is a quote at the back of the book. it goes like this:
"when you ask questions about life, it's because the answers you find affect your life for the rest of your life. Sometimes, your life may quite litreally depend on the answers. with questions like these, you want to be certain the answers are correct"
"this book contains a bunch of questions and answers. It has its limits-there are a lot of questions that dont get answered here. but here is the best reason to read this book- the answeres are true. they are true because they follow God's word and its the final authority"
the cover page was funky with two teens being potrayed in the cover page and lots of colours. it cost me 15.50 do you think its worth it. well i dont know untill i read e book and whether i find it useful or not. well lets hope it is, so i didnt waste my money. hahas.
went to my guardian's house to retrive all my letters that have been accumulated over months. basically there is no changest in the living condition in the novena zoo. but maybe there is slight improvement in the zookeeper and zoo food perhaps? haha met jeraldine afterwards for dinner at novena square.. and we went to mph and saw a section which says RELATIONSHIP. gosh and guess what we saw in the second row of the shelf. 10 great sex tactics. sex positions, book of karma sutra and with all the semi nude pics or perhaps nude.. i was like wha the hell... the book shop its like open to public which means anbody can come and buy and browse. what if innocent kids went pass that sections and see these stuffs.. haah. i dont mind getting one for myself though :p
i wonder what has singapore govenrnment been doing. they have srict rating for movies. movies with kissing scene more than 10 secs is considered a nc16 movie. with a vulgar word or coarse language are considered as nc16 or m18 or r21. then all the semi nude books displaying on the shelf of a bookshop made it a PG bookshop? why dont they rate it r21 so that all those above 21 will be able to go there and thus this wont polute young innocent children's mind? like me..?err
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
and just like a sponge... it doesn't absorb all the water... it release water too..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
and only a certain amount of water is stored within the sponge.. -
=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
what i am trying to say is that... absorb everything.. at the same time filter it and throw it away..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
filter the bad things... and keep those which will motivate you..
-=HFA=-™♥love makes life fly around the world without wings ♥™ says:
and whenever u wanna study... recall those which motivate you to study.
this piece of encouragement really made me realise that not all the words that the mask blurted out was true. that i should just listen to what is useful and filtrate out what is not. when nina asked about it to mdm toh and she didnt say anything.but its all seem to be exagerated.
mask: Vinolia failed malay because she wrote out of point
penguin: SHe had learn her lesson
mask: Farah failed geography
penguin: Oh dear.. what had happen to her? she used to be a very good and smart girl
notice what is the difference?
i had to bisect my whole wadrobe to find e perfect clothing for me. i think i really need to get some matching clothes lesson coz i think i have a very bad sense of fashion? thats what some of them told me like farah and nina? huh not as if theirs very good right ><>. at last i decided to choose this shirt. i love it and i just love it. haahs
JESUS vs ALIEN talk was great, it talked about how pop western culture had its influence over God's people and opps i forgot who is the speaker but i know he is an angmoh. and he is 44 years OLD. poor rahul lost his phone during the lunch at west coast macs. all of us recalled that e phone was in MRs billie car., but when we got inside. poof dissapear.!
e lunch at macs were great too. shushi, megan and rahul was there.. Its so sweet of Mrs Billie to buy us pastries from macs which i always find it very ex and not worth buying, but it TASTE great.. after that we went to this pyramid thing. its all made from rope and we are suppose to climb all the way to the top. shuszhe was like super FAST. she took less than 1 minute to climb all the way up. while i took hours and get stuck in the middle of it. didnt dare to go up or down. oh i think i need to go there more often and practice climbing it and conquering my fears of falling down and die ><>
there was a small book fair at faith methodist church where they sell variety of christian books. its all about struggles, believes, faiths and there is even one for homeosexuality. sounds cool eh. i bought myself a book. its about questions teens are asking about god. there is a quote at the back of the book. it goes like this:
"when you ask questions about life, it's because the answers you find affect your life for the rest of your life. Sometimes, your life may quite litreally depend on the answers. with questions like these, you want to be certain the answers are correct"
"this book contains a bunch of questions and answers. It has its limits-there are a lot of questions that dont get answered here. but here is the best reason to read this book- the answeres are true. they are true because they follow God's word and its the final authority"
the cover page was funky with two teens being potrayed in the cover page and lots of colours. it cost me 15.50 do you think its worth it. well i dont know untill i read e book and whether i find it useful or not. well lets hope it is, so i didnt waste my money. hahas.
went to my guardian's house to retrive all my letters that have been accumulated over months. basically there is no changest in the living condition in the novena zoo. but maybe there is slight improvement in the zookeeper and zoo food perhaps? haha met jeraldine afterwards for dinner at novena square.. and we went to mph and saw a section which says RELATIONSHIP. gosh and guess what we saw in the second row of the shelf. 10 great sex tactics. sex positions, book of karma sutra and with all the semi nude pics or perhaps nude.. i was like wha the hell... the book shop its like open to public which means anbody can come and buy and browse. what if innocent kids went pass that sections and see these stuffs.. haah. i dont mind getting one for myself though :p
i wonder what has singapore govenrnment been doing. they have srict rating for movies. movies with kissing scene more than 10 secs is considered a nc16 movie. with a vulgar word or coarse language are considered as nc16 or m18 or r21. then all the semi nude books displaying on the shelf of a bookshop made it a PG bookshop? why dont they rate it r21 so that all those above 21 will be able to go there and thus this wont polute young innocent children's mind? like me..?err
Labels: jesus vs alien
well i am trying to improve my english by writing blog. do you think it will improve? haha
for the past few days i have been pressurised by everything that can come into your mind.
TEACHERS
RESULTS
SCHOOLS
HOLIDAYS
FRIENDS
everything under the sun basically
i have got atttitude problem. yes i do. but must this result in seeing my dear principal Ms Lim? is getting f9 for malay one of the reason? am i that bad that my name has appeared endless of times among the teachers during the meeting? do i not motivate myself to get good result? do i not put in effort in getting my expected grades? do i purposely want to get bloody 9 for my paper?
do you think i like the results that i receive now? do you think i dont bloody care abt them? do you think i dont want to be as good as them? do you think i spend money in all those tuitions for nothing? WELL.......... i do CARE for everything. but you think i dont, so I DONT.
for the past few days i have been pressurised by everything that can come into your mind.
TEACHERS
RESULTS
SCHOOLS
HOLIDAYS
FRIENDS
everything under the sun basically
i have got atttitude problem. yes i do. but must this result in seeing my dear principal Ms Lim? is getting f9 for malay one of the reason? am i that bad that my name has appeared endless of times among the teachers during the meeting? do i not motivate myself to get good result? do i not put in effort in getting my expected grades? do i purposely want to get bloody 9 for my paper?
do you think i like the results that i receive now? do you think i dont bloody care abt them? do you think i dont want to be as good as them? do you think i spend money in all those tuitions for nothing? WELL.......... i do CARE for everything. but you think i dont, so I DONT.
Labels: attitude problems
do you ever think of why your good friends arent the ones who you expect them to be? how can that be i mean. everybody is diffrent please. does different from others make any impact? no ? yes? when you one something to go according to your way but the opposite thing happens. and you blame your good friends. why in the first place you make them your goodfriends? its cause you do not have any other friend. NO! yes no other as good as them. YES! want to make more friends? YES. but how?
good friends means friends who always stand by you. they wont get pissed so easily. will be enthusiastically agree to everything that we suggest (of course not the impossible stuff). friends who always cheer you up and will not give you one word encouragement or simply say UPTOYOU or I DONT KNOW. friends who will be there when we need them to share our sorrow and joy together. Friends who always eager to know what have you been going trough in your life. we can simply says they are not artifiicial friends.
ahh.. does that make sense to me now? haha. yes it does. so can i demote them to not so good friend?
yes you can. but i do not have anymore good friends. what can i do?
find more friends.
Like HOW?
be more friendly. duh.
everyone KNOWS that. like DUH. but it simply doesnt work in this society, in this world.
What you expect me to do then?
mmm. be my good friend?
GO AND DIE (:
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yes i am dead now. can you be my good friend now?
good friends means friends who always stand by you. they wont get pissed so easily. will be enthusiastically agree to everything that we suggest (of course not the impossible stuff). friends who always cheer you up and will not give you one word encouragement or simply say UPTOYOU or I DONT KNOW. friends who will be there when we need them to share our sorrow and joy together. Friends who always eager to know what have you been going trough in your life. we can simply says they are not artifiicial friends.
ahh.. does that make sense to me now? haha. yes it does. so can i demote them to not so good friend?
yes you can. but i do not have anymore good friends. what can i do?
find more friends.
Like HOW?
be more friendly. duh.
everyone KNOWS that. like DUH. but it simply doesnt work in this society, in this world.
What you expect me to do then?
mmm. be my good friend?
GO AND DIE (:
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yes i am dead now. can you be my good friend now?
Labels: Are they your true friends?
Friday, May 18, 2007
there came in mr firhad into the bus 198 that had stopped at buona vista bustop.. with his dao look he smile wickedly at me and sat somewhere across me.his tote back actually look nice on him despite being curse by whoever that see him carrying tt gayish bag >< unbelievable! what a nice encounter in e bus eh.anw it has been a great morning to look at this BIO legendary teacher actually sitting accorss me in bus without acknowledging each other.!
my entire morning was filled with anxiety of what are the grades that i m going to get when Nina told me that mdm toh had actually asked them what happen to me. the way she described it to me is like.waoh i failed till so badly.... my heart skipped a bit and continued with irregular heartbeat. i was actually thinking that i was going to die. woah. i cant possibly fail emath right. i mean i hadnt get any B fr emath for exam since sec1 and i actually fail it in sec4.?! i know mdm toh was concerned about me.. i m glad.. but at the same time i feel that i have dissapointed her alot. I had promise to get my A1 for this midyear but i got b3 instead.
i actually wasted 16marks on my graph and 6 marks on my numberpattern.. kao right. one thing i am glad is that i didnt make as much careless mistake as last time which is quite a great improvement. but damn TRANSFORMATION? who the heck in the right mind would get 3/11 for transformation? ME! of course.and another graph i onli got 4.5.... haiz.
VINOLIA. u ARE DAMN WEAK IN GRAPH> GO AND DO A GRAPH QUESTION EVERYDAY FOR 3 MONTHS! do you think i will get my full marks for graph by then? haha i could have gotten my a2 if i din make dis paticular mistake on my mensuration which cost me 3.5 marks.! ah. damn...
anw my amath is more depressing. my aim is 69/80!! i knw 69 is a sexy no. that is why my aim is 69! hahaah.. but in the end i get almost half of what i expected! damn. damn and damn. mostly careless mistakes. who the heck will get wrong for inverse matrix? ME!!! ahh everything is me!.... i was utterly at lost when i recieve my paper. my tuition teacher expect me to get A la.. how am i going to telll him my marks now! ah...
well the one thing that i can be proud of is my ENGLISH! i passed! amazingly. e first time in this year that i passed my compo and well compre! and i get c5! i made an improvement. and i wish i can futher improve on it not deprove! reading books actually help! its amazing. i become more creative now. and i guess i just have to read MORE and MORE books to improve my english futher. well my nex target is not high but i am very contented with b4. so i will all give it to GOD.
another thing to be proud of is my combine humans. i actually get a2 for the first time in my life. ooo.. all thanx to history.. actually my ss did kinda bad with 16 marks. but my hist pulled me up! well hope that i can maintain that standard? then i will be safe for my humans >< amen..
all my other results are not worth to be commented and talked about. becoz all screwed up.who in the right mind get 9 for malay?ME! me again! me again! ahhh. i basically screwed up my entire midyear paper tho i kinda study quite hard compared to last year. but why did i still screw up? I DONT KNOW. well i need to know so that i can improve!
but i will asure myself to get all 1 for all sci and maths. with exeption of b4 for my eng a2 for malay and humans! will i get it? YES i will for the sake of acjc! yes acjc! no other than that!
i am kinda worry about farah too. how can she drop till like that getting around the same mark as me which is TERRIBLE la. hayo wad did you do farah? have you not study hard too? hmm well if that is so, lets chiong!!
jessica said that i used to be smarter than her last time n now she beat me like shit. well since u ask wat happen to me? i will jus say nothing happen. the REAL War haven is jus ABOUT to start. beware ><
the real war is in 3 months time and now is preparation time for me n you and everybody who is sec4 this year in this universe. am i right? yes i do. and i know its lame =)
my entire morning was filled with anxiety of what are the grades that i m going to get when Nina told me that mdm toh had actually asked them what happen to me. the way she described it to me is like.waoh i failed till so badly.... my heart skipped a bit and continued with irregular heartbeat. i was actually thinking that i was going to die. woah. i cant possibly fail emath right. i mean i hadnt get any B fr emath for exam since sec1 and i actually fail it in sec4.?! i know mdm toh was concerned about me.. i m glad.. but at the same time i feel that i have dissapointed her alot. I had promise to get my A1 for this midyear but i got b3 instead.
i actually wasted 16marks on my graph and 6 marks on my numberpattern.. kao right. one thing i am glad is that i didnt make as much careless mistake as last time which is quite a great improvement. but damn TRANSFORMATION? who the heck in the right mind would get 3/11 for transformation? ME! of course.and another graph i onli got 4.5.... haiz.
VINOLIA. u ARE DAMN WEAK IN GRAPH> GO AND DO A GRAPH QUESTION EVERYDAY FOR 3 MONTHS! do you think i will get my full marks for graph by then? haha i could have gotten my a2 if i din make dis paticular mistake on my mensuration which cost me 3.5 marks.! ah. damn...
anw my amath is more depressing. my aim is 69/80!! i knw 69 is a sexy no. that is why my aim is 69! hahaah.. but in the end i get almost half of what i expected! damn. damn and damn. mostly careless mistakes. who the heck will get wrong for inverse matrix? ME!!! ahh everything is me!.... i was utterly at lost when i recieve my paper. my tuition teacher expect me to get A la.. how am i going to telll him my marks now! ah...
well the one thing that i can be proud of is my ENGLISH! i passed! amazingly. e first time in this year that i passed my compo and well compre! and i get c5! i made an improvement. and i wish i can futher improve on it not deprove! reading books actually help! its amazing. i become more creative now. and i guess i just have to read MORE and MORE books to improve my english futher. well my nex target is not high but i am very contented with b4. so i will all give it to GOD.
another thing to be proud of is my combine humans. i actually get a2 for the first time in my life. ooo.. all thanx to history.. actually my ss did kinda bad with 16 marks. but my hist pulled me up! well hope that i can maintain that standard? then i will be safe for my humans >< amen..
all my other results are not worth to be commented and talked about. becoz all screwed up.who in the right mind get 9 for malay?ME! me again! me again! ahhh. i basically screwed up my entire midyear paper tho i kinda study quite hard compared to last year. but why did i still screw up? I DONT KNOW. well i need to know so that i can improve!
but i will asure myself to get all 1 for all sci and maths. with exeption of b4 for my eng a2 for malay and humans! will i get it? YES i will for the sake of acjc! yes acjc! no other than that!
i am kinda worry about farah too. how can she drop till like that getting around the same mark as me which is TERRIBLE la. hayo wad did you do farah? have you not study hard too? hmm well if that is so, lets chiong!!
jessica said that i used to be smarter than her last time n now she beat me like shit. well since u ask wat happen to me? i will jus say nothing happen. the REAL War haven is jus ABOUT to start. beware ><
the real war is in 3 months time and now is preparation time for me n you and everybody who is sec4 this year in this universe. am i right? yes i do. and i know its lame =)
Labels: dissapointing results again...